Emotionally dying down

A lot of the emotional side of life at work has....pretty much died down. Well...all the old emotional department stuff. First though, I must apologize to Yvette for not being able to add her as an author for this blog. Yes, she is a real person.

Disclaimer: All stories presented here are not purely fiction. Any resemblance in name or character to any real person is not purely coincidence either.

Roland has brought quite a few new stories to the table, and I don't know quite what to make of it. He has been much braver in showing his feelings and me, being the shy non-girly girl that I am, don't know how he can be so brave.

Ok, Yvette? :P I know you want to say something about that last line....leave it in the comments

Anyway, CM has also been frequenting the office a lot, so every day is mostly work and no play for us. It's glaringly obvious that everyone is much more relaxed and happier when CM, Perot and Gavin are not around. This was evident on one evening last week. All three left early and I was still there even though my shift ended 2 hours earlier. Roland and Mark were running around, half the time chasing Yvette and half the time dancing like the crazy people they are. The only other people around were Eric and (*AH! I didn't give him a name!) guy. haha. They were concentrating on their work while Roland, Mark, Yvette and myself were playing around. I was late getting home and was stressed about it, but I was lucky I was with Mark, Roland, & Yvette instead of anyone else. I think I would have left earlier if they weren't around, but I know I would have also been still too stressed. At least, they got me to dance a little and laugh a lot.

Roland randomly took my cold hands and began to lead. I've had to waltz before and remembered how it felt like when someone can lead graciously and effectively in a dance. I was in a kebaya, but luckily had no difficulties. Roland proceeded to want to "hand me off" to Sir Mark, but Mark hid behind the divider, cutting off the dance flow.

Funnily enough, Mark and Roland ended up dancing some weird dance together, hopping and skipping across the width of the room. Yvette and I were amazed at their joviality. Before Yvette could catch them on video, they reached the end of the room and stopped dancing. But...oh, what a sight!

sigh...such crazy times....

calming yourself down

It may be the hardest thing to do on a daily basis, but maybe it has come to that. Maybe I do have to calm myself down daily.

So many things test our limits when it comes to work.

I felt like bursting. All the small things were adding up and pissing me off. I kept quiet as much as possible during lunch for fear of saying something I can't take back.

"If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything" - I'm not sure who said it, but I made it my policy for today

Flashback
I couldn't stop chatting away, telling one story after another to Peony. For some odd reason, it was just the two of us out for lunch that day. Maybe Yvette and Rolana had their own plans. I was driving and talking Peony's ear off about a few non-work related stories.
End of flashback

Well, that was ages ago when we did not have to worry much about gossip or office politics...when all that mattered was getting our work done. Nowadays, the air is laden with gossip and it takes a lot of my energy to not see things in that certain light. Maybe Rolana and Perot needs to take it slow. Thoughts about their actions are filling my head with nonsense and heavy gossip. Knowing that there might even be the slightest chance that something is going on between the two of them makes me more nervous, unsettled and unhappy than I would ever admit outloud.

Saying things and acting it out...calming yourself vs being the counselor for others...well...you don't learn these things in just a day.

boredom on a Saturday

I have found a new loophole in office boredom. :)

It's about 3:15pm on a Saturday. We are so damn bored. Where's Yvette when I need her?