It may be the hardest thing to do on a daily basis, but maybe it has come to that. Maybe I do have to calm myself down daily.
So many things test our limits when it comes to work.
I felt like bursting. All the small things were adding up and pissing me off. I kept quiet as much as possible during lunch for fear of saying something I can't take back.
"If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything" - I'm not sure who said it, but I made it my policy for today
Flashback
I couldn't stop chatting away, telling one story after another to Peony. For some odd reason, it was just the two of us out for lunch that day. Maybe Yvette and Rolana had their own plans. I was driving and talking Peony's ear off about a few non-work related stories.
End of flashback
Well, that was ages ago when we did not have to worry much about gossip or office politics...when all that mattered was getting our work done. Nowadays, the air is laden with gossip and it takes a lot of my energy to not see things in that certain light. Maybe Rolana and Perot needs to take it slow. Thoughts about their actions are filling my head with nonsense and heavy gossip. Knowing that there might even be the slightest chance that something is going on between the two of them makes me more nervous, unsettled and unhappy than I would ever admit outloud.
Saying things and acting it out...calming yourself vs being the counselor for others...well...you don't learn these things in just a day.
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